What do I feel? What do I want? I’m not sure 8). My mood can really change very often I may feel down but in 2 minutes feel like I can do many things and that great future is waiting for me. I want not very much but quite enough things and at the same time, that’s what bring me sometimes disappointments or sadness, but – never mind – crying is easy and sometimes relaxing – but not all the time, moving and moving all the time…

Many people ask me how is Ghana, how is everything, what I feel, what has changed. I know for sure – that something changed, but didn’t think very much about it. I know for sure that I learnt something, if to think more – will find out it. But what I’m afraid of is that I will forget everything in a year or more after coming back to home. For example – when you are foreigner you have some challenges that are understood very much by other foreigners, but when you are back to home for some time – you stop having such challenges and becoming much less sensitive to foreigners’ problems/challenges.

After living with several foreigners, especially boys in the house I understood for sure – that it’s nice experience – but it’s enough and I always want to live in my own flat/house and can bear some other people (especially not friends) only for several days and better – not in my house. I also understood how much I like to decorate my own place/flat/house, how much I like to make any place my warm/comfortable home.

One of my best friend, or the best one, came to vizit me in Ghana and also work for AIESEC in Ghana for a while. On this picture you can see how he enjoyed his staying, so, maybe, some of you will be also motivated to come 8). I'm working on one my very good friend Polina now 8). Hope to see her and somebody else here! Welcome!!!

Well, well, well, … this letter I’m motivated to write after some things that I was watching and that I found out. It’s something not nice that is disappointing me and not motivating to stay in AIESEC. It is POLITICS in AIESEC! Yes, I’m really shocked, I started to notice it since around 2 years ago, maybe, not earlier as didn’t have an access to many things and was not so “high” that that anybody can blame me in something.
But, really, people, one of the reason I joined AIESEC – as there was promise – non politic, as I hated and still don’t like politic, as you never know the truth and people playing with other people lives as with a sh…t.
And now what I see in AIESEC all over the world makes my eyes huge, makes me feel fear for where we are going and makes me disappointed. Can you imagine – you are enjoying an exotic food and then – when you almost finish eating(while eating you say hundreds times how nice and delicious it is) you discover that it is made from sh…t?
During last two years I saw so much sh…t in AIESEC, thanks God, there were still many nice unique things that didn’t let AIESEC to die in my eyes at all. Yes, AIESEC is a school of life – but does it mean – that our life should be in a sh…t? No, definitely no, and I would really like to shout to the ears(such loud that they would hear!) of that “sh…ty people” to stop doing what they do and/ or spoil only their own life.
But the most I don’t understand and don’t want to understand people who do a lot of bad things behind your back, gossiping, destroying full organizations, lives just because of some stupid ideas, ambitions, sickness,… and then they are coming to you, smile to you, regretting and crying with you because of some problems (as we say in AIESEC - challenges) you have in life. How can they be so mean???? And, if somebody like this is reading now it – never come to me, please!!! Go and buy dolls and dolls house, build dolls city at your home/garden and play with them as much as you want and don’t disturb anybody!
And, another thing I was shocked – what kind of people we recruit to the organization – if somebody contacting me in MSN(with contacts of people I know or from AIESEC) and from the first questions asking me my age, wants me to send my picture,…and when I say that it’s not a club for singles and that I’m not looking for anybody and don’t want to answer such kind of not very smart questions - the person starts to send me all disgusting words and pictures he has, insulting me in the most terrible way,… and this is AIESECer(I know he is in our organization for sure )???? I hate…….
Of course, there are a lot to say positive about other AIESECers I met – I did it and doing and will be doing, but for sure – not today. 8)

11 March 2007, 11 p.m.

Here are the kids on the shore who are collecting coco-nuts from the palms, eating, inviting us, selling to some other people, climbing to palms,... 8)
And also this amazing car that was done by German family who came here through Spain and all African countries on the way, this car has 9 tonnes, 500 litres of petrol, some protection from elephants,... this family is travelling with a dog 8). Nice "Zebra" car!

On the way to the Ocean shore by motocircle we spend once night with our nice LC UCC in their friendly dormitory! And other two days our home was this blue thing 8)...

We were the guests of one of the nicest Muslim area with beautiful Mosque and garden near it.








A Birthday party of our Lovely Land-Lord granddaughter. And her cake was so cute - like a Barbie Girl. 8)

From the same conference a group of Crazy facilitators and Chair - YEAH8))! It was real fun to work with them! Huge mixture - half African-half European - Kenya-Denmark, Cote D'Ivore, Ghana, Lithuania-Ghana, Turkey, Nigeria, Ukraine-Ghana..
Our Pirates Team!8)))

This is how our nice conference in Cape Coast, Ghana looked like. Danish-Kenyan emotional facilitator and a group of bright active aiesecers. Thank you, guys! It was nice time!